Colgate was on spring break last week, and I spent much of the time reading and reflecting. I re-read The Perks of Being a Wallflower,
which is undeniably my favorite book. I identify so easily with Charlie--his emotionality, his compassion, and his way of seeing and understanding the world. Reading that book always realigns things for me and helps me recenter myself. I also read The Sense of an Ending,
which had quite an unsettling conclusion without much of a sense of an ending. But that was probably the point. I am now deeply engrossed in The Catcher in the Rye
. I love it. I feel like I'm reading it at an incredibly appropriate time in my life where I'm trying to figure out exactly who I am and what I'm doing.
I also spent some time thinking about who I am and who I want to be. I've felt more secure and confident lately, and I'm loving it. I still feel uncertain as to who I really am, but I think I know who I want to be, so I'm going to be striving to be that person all of the time. I'm sure most of the uncertainty is a consequence of the point I'm at in my life--the cross-roads, so to speak. I know the direction I would like my future to go, but if it actually goes that way at this time is not entirely in my control. And that lack of control over every aspect of my life is something I desperately need to learn to accept. So that's the next stage for me in this whole project of figuring out what life's about.
I hope you all are doing well and finding joy in both the great and small things