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It's been five years since I've owned a horse, and I've felt that absence, like a part of me isn't quite whole. Initially, I had planned to start looking for a horse after my first semester of grad school so that I could get comfortable with my schedule. But I can't wait that long. I know what I can spend and set my budget. The trainer I've been riding for this past year knows what I'm looking for, and I trust him to help me find the right match.
When I sold Azteca, I had hoped to buy him back when I was ready to own a horse again. I went through an actual mourning period after selling him, and I think I've finally come out of that this past year. I've ridden dozens of different horses and don't feel the loss of Azteca as much as I miss the loss of the partnership. To me, this signifies that I'm ready to own again. I'm in a financially secure situation, have a plan that will ensure financial stability, and will be in one place for the next five years. I'll always be able to come up with excuses--it's a lot of money...I have to move for my internship...I'm getting married...I'm going to have kids...--But I can't listen to that anymore. Waiting until the "opportune time" will be a waste of time. However many years I wait, those years will pass anyway, and I'd rather they pass with an equine companion.
I need this. I need the horse, the competition, the partnership. This is a big decision, and it's the right decision. It's time to bring another horse into my life
When I sold Azteca, I had hoped to buy him back when I was ready to own a horse again. I went through an actual mourning period after selling him, and I think I've finally come out of that this past year. I've ridden dozens of different horses and don't feel the loss of Azteca as much as I miss the loss of the partnership. To me, this signifies that I'm ready to own again. I'm in a financially secure situation, have a plan that will ensure financial stability, and will be in one place for the next five years. I'll always be able to come up with excuses--it's a lot of money...I have to move for my internship...I'm getting married...I'm going to have kids...--But I can't listen to that anymore. Waiting until the "opportune time" will be a waste of time. However many years I wait, those years will pass anyway, and I'd rather they pass with an equine companion.
I need this. I need the horse, the competition, the partnership. This is a big decision, and it's the right decision. It's time to bring another horse into my life
Oh. Hello, everyone.
Alright. So it's probably no secret that I haven't been very active here over the past few years. In fact, I've been completely absent from dA over the past several months. Graduate school is a full time job. I spent the last year and a half planning a wedding...and then getting married! And, I spent the summer competing Nelson.
So, for those of you I've been friends with on here and who still follow this account, I think my absence can be best explained by the fact that I've been having to adult really hard these past few years and make lots of adult decisions:
:bulletpink: I earned my MS last fall and am in my fourth year of graduate scho
New Year, New Me?
Not exactly. I've come to be quite happy with who I am and where I'm headed in life. So for the first time in many years, my resolutions are not so much about change as they are about continued self-discovery and growth. And although I am primarily committed to my academics, research, and career growth, the identity of equestrian remains central to how I identify as a person. Academics come first. And so in the remaining time in which I can choose to ride, sleep, rest, eat, read, or watch movies, I will always ride. Over the past year I have come to realize what my goals are in equestrian competition, and they are different than what they onc
February...Already?
Somehow it's February. Somehow I'm already a month into my second semester of graduate school. I have no idea how that happened. My first semester and the holidays absolutely flew by.
There's probably not much point in updating because I primarily lurk now, but I still enjoy the art that shows up in my inbox every day. I still sketch occasionally, but nothing complete enough to post.
Finesse is doing very well and we're growing a lot together. We had our first adventure at a show last September. It started with her throwing a fit in the schooling ring and ended with us winning our last class of the day. Now that I've owned her for several m
So This is Grad School
I'm about 2 weeks into my graduate program here at Washington State University, and I love it. My classes are great. My professors are amazing. And my cohort is beyond amazing! Everyone has told me how important a friendly and supportive cohort is, so I'm thrilled we all get along so well. I'm also excited to be studying and doing research again. Although, it is a bit of an adjustment going back to student life after taking the last couple of years off. But I feel like my life has more direction now, and it's helping me feel more settled.
Finesse is doing very well and enjoying the 10 hours of turnout she gets every day. I finally broke down
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This makes me super happy. Just... I don't know, I've lost four horses to super weird circumstances, and people have said I'm crazy to have wanted to get another.
I don't have a lot of money, my income is far from steady, and 80% of it goes to Tanzen's care. But, I've had him for 3 years now and I wouldn't trade any of it for anything!
I suppose it's just really nice to know there are people out there who understand what it feels like to need horses in your life. It's like breathing.
Good luck finding your next true love! Keep us posted!
I don't have a lot of money, my income is far from steady, and 80% of it goes to Tanzen's care. But, I've had him for 3 years now and I wouldn't trade any of it for anything!
I suppose it's just really nice to know there are people out there who understand what it feels like to need horses in your life. It's like breathing.
Good luck finding your next true love! Keep us posted!